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Welcome to my blog. More nights than not I am up well past the midnight hour. Burning the midnight oil, some might say. I believe it is because I enjoy the "me time". The hubby and the grandson are in bed, the phone is not ringing, I don't have to stop what I am doing to take care of something or someone else. I can watch what I want on TV or not at all if I want. I can turn the volume down or mute it if I want! It's all about me.....and usually God.

It's usually me and Facebook, until all my friends say goodnight and sign off, then it's me and God. We have these talks and He usually shows me something profound.Usually I am amazed at why I never "got it" before. At that very second, I have an "aha" moment, then find somewhere to record it, whether it be on a blog (I've started a few) or journal, (started even more of those), write it in my bible, which has many profound "ahas", or just write it on a piece of paper,that gets put aside and then years later is found to be read again...at just the right moment! An "aha" moment. It all comes full circle. Just like life.

Did you ever notice how people come into your lives at just the right time? Then you go years without seeing or talking to them, then poof, one day you run into them again and you pick up just where you left off. That's how God is. Even though we are not always faithful and loyal to him, He never leaves us. We may not always be thinking of Him or even include Him into our day, but He is always there for us when we call on Him.

Friday, February 15, 2013

More than I Can Handle...


The Lord promises to not give us more than we can handle....well we are on a fine line here! I am walking a tightrope without a balance pole! It's just about more than I can handle! On Friday, my husband was admitted to the hospital with symptoms of a kidney/UT infection. Today, diagnosed with recurrent Renal Cell Carcinoma!
 In 2003 he underwent a very lengthy nephrectomy (removal of his left kidney) along with part of his spleen, liver, and pancreas. Renal Cell Carcinoma (kidney cancer) had metastasized itself to those organs as well as grown a huge tumor the size of a football into his kidney. He came through the surgery with flying colors. Praise God! The cancer seemed to be gone....for almost ten years. Now it's reared it's ugly head again! What happened, Lord?
The doctor said it's a blessing he got an infection, otherwise we might not have found the cancer until it was too late...whatever that means. I just pray it's not "too late" now! I am trying to be optimistic about all of this, it's just a little hard to be optimistic, or even trust doctors, at this point. I just lost Mom, two months ago! What the heck? I don't know what God's thinking! He must have a plan, because I sure don't! I don't think He understands how much losing Mom hurt...now to deal with this! It's too much! We have plans...plans for a future! It does not include Kidney Cancer! 
My kids lost their dad a year ago next month. Nick has been a dad to them since they were small. It's too much for them, also. 
So that being said, I give it to the Lord, because it's more than I can handle! 

Posted by Donna Askew at 9:09 AM

2 comments:

Donna Askew said...

Well, the arrows just keep coming. There seems to be no end to them. I honestly do not know what God is thinking! I know He says he has a plan, but glory to God if I know what it is!!!

May 8, 2013 at 10:35 PM
Donna Askew said...

It's been a while...a very long while! God's plan was to take my husband home to live with Him...the ultimate goal we are all hoping to achieve, some day! I just wasn't prepared for that day to be December 30, 2016! Gosh it doesn't seem like a year and a half has gone by, I still miss him so much.

September 6, 2018 at 10:37 AM

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