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Welcome to my blog. More nights than not I am up well past the midnight hour. Burning the midnight oil, some might say. I believe it is because I enjoy the "me time". The hubby and the grandson are in bed, the phone is not ringing, I don't have to stop what I am doing to take care of something or someone else. I can watch what I want on TV or not at all if I want. I can turn the volume down or mute it if I want! It's all about me.....and usually God.

It's usually me and Facebook, until all my friends say goodnight and sign off, then it's me and God. We have these talks and He usually shows me something profound.Usually I am amazed at why I never "got it" before. At that very second, I have an "aha" moment, then find somewhere to record it, whether it be on a blog (I've started a few) or journal, (started even more of those), write it in my bible, which has many profound "ahas", or just write it on a piece of paper,that gets put aside and then years later is found to be read again...at just the right moment! An "aha" moment. It all comes full circle. Just like life.

Did you ever notice how people come into your lives at just the right time? Then you go years without seeing or talking to them, then poof, one day you run into them again and you pick up just where you left off. That's how God is. Even though we are not always faithful and loyal to him, He never leaves us. We may not always be thinking of Him or even include Him into our day, but He is always there for us when we call on Him.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Today is Sunday, the day the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it! As I sit here reading Facebook, IMing a friend, and working on my blog, there are tears streaming down my face. I really don't know why they won't stop coming other than I simply miss my mother so much. I wish I could be stronger or happier that she is in Heaven with God, but the truth is, selfishly I want her here with me. I guess it's wrong to be that selfish, but God forgive me I am. I have lived almost every day of my 56 years with my mother here on earth to talk to, see, and lean on. I feel so lost without her. It's not that I particularly have one certain thing that I need for her to do, I just want to see her, talk to her, hug her. I look around at her things, which bring me some comfort to be near, because they are things she loved and enjoyed, I read her poems that she wrote, cards that we exchanged over the years, I go to her house and bask in her presence, For it is there that she feels the most real, I know one day I will have to let go, but for now, just a little while, I need to hold on to her.
Posted by Donna Askew at 10:06 AM

2 comments:

pb said...

You don't have to let go if you don't want to right now. My heart goes out to you. I can only imagine how awful it is to lose your Mom, your best friend. Reading this makes me so scared of losing my Mom. You and your Mom had the same kind of relationship that me and my Mom have. I'm so sorry you are hurting so bad. I wish I could take that hurt from you. Hugs sweet Donna.

January 22, 2013 at 10:23 PM
Donna Askew said...

Thank you sweet Pam. I can only say, treasure every moment you have with your parents. I miss mine so much. I am thankful for the time we had. Your prayers are comforting and felt! Love you!

February 3, 2013 at 10:58 PM

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